12/29/2010

30 days 28 & 29!

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
If I was pregnant I would be so super excited! I really want just one more, and Chris is not wanting one more. Its a small disagreement between us but if it is meant to be it will be.

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
This new year I am focusing on me. Its my turn to be a little selfish and get myself together, but in the bigger picture its for my girls. My health is the most important if Im not healthy my family cant be healthy. SO in 2011 Its all about me! Starting with my diet, not starting a diet but my diet and what I eat. Its time to make life long changes and really concentrate on putting good foods in my body and not so many bad ones. Also getting my activity level back up, I have the resources at home to do it now is the time to get serious about it. My goal is 50 lbs lost by Jan. 1 2012. I have my plan made and ready to tackle it...here's to being healthier and thinner in a year! Why am I doing it? For me of course, I hate how I look and I miss being active and feeling confident in my skin. So I am going to take control and do something about it!

12/27/2010

A week of Truths!

Since Christmas had me busy here are some truths to catch you up!

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
I wish I would have slowed down. After high school graduation I was in too much of a hurry to get married and have kids. If it was up to me Chris and I would have been married in 6 months of meeting! I knew within months that him and I were meant to be together forever.I met him the Summer I graduated high school, 2004. I even told him I was going to marry him, but he is the one that wanted to date longer, it took him longer to fall in love with me...loser! Lol just kidding! Our relationship was pretty rushed, We were together for a Year and 1/2 when he said I love you (December 2005), A few months later we found out we were pregnant with Charleigh Feb2006. In October 2006 Charleigh was born. In Feb. 2007 Chris proposed to me, Aug. 2007 we found out we were pregnant with Rylee.In March 2008 Baby Rylee was born. In Sept. 2008 we Finally married :) Maybe if S-L-O-W-E-D down a bit we would have had more time to enjoy ourselves and each other like a "normal" couple. If that happened then we may not have had the two little girls we have today, and they are our world!

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)  There are always songs that make me happy, or have life lessons in them, But there are 2 songs that stand out for me that I would dedicate to my little girls....Rascall Flatts-My Wish....Its something that I want my girls to listen to it and experience the things in that song. The next would be Taylor Swift-Fifteen....Boy if all of us girls knew the lyrics to that song when we were that age we wouldn't have had to experience so many heartbreaks!

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
I don't know why I'm still alive today, so many people my age have passed on and maybe its because I have a less dangerous lifestyle, or God's plan includes me to be alive and be here for my girls and find out why I was put on this earth...my purpose!

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Who hasn't? Sometimes things get too stressful and crazy, but I know that there is nothing that is so bad that I would just want to die, I have too much to live for!

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
My life! My life is the best thing going for me right now, I have an amazing happy life. I have the greatest Marriage, we are not the average couple at all, we are above average!  I have the best husband in the world, the most amazing Children and strong and supportive Family from both my side and Chris' side, I am able to stay at home and be the primary caregiver to my girls, go to school so that when they are ready for school I can start a career, and anything and everything I could ask for! I have a great life and I thank God daily for the blessings he has given us and appreciate all the work that he has done for us.

12/22/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 22

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
I wish I wouldn't have quit school.....twice. I wish I would have stayed and graduated from Cosmetology school, I wish I would have stayed and tried harder at K-State. However, even if I did graduate from either school I would still be where I am today, a stay at home mom. So I guess now that I am back in school it doesn't really matter. I am still getting a degree and once both girls are in school I will be graduated with a Bachelors in Early Childhood Development and will then start my career. So those mistakes I made 5 years ago, are not so big anymore. They just cost me a lot of money!

12/21/2010

*30 Days of Truth* CATCH UP!

I got behind last week so here are days 17-21!

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
I haven't really read any books that have to deal with serious matters. Most of the things I read are fiction.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
I support. I have a good number of friends that are gay and that has never bothered me and have always been very good friends to me. Why should they not be able to love and marry the person that completes them? To me marriage is a union to each other, a commitment of love. You cant help who you fall in love with, and if that person is who you want to spend the rest of your life with, then you should be able to.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Honestly, I don't know much about either. I do believe in God, and have been on my own journey to Christianity, and raising my children to know God. Politics is a big haze to me.....I have just never gotten into what it is or what it means, I don't even know what I am (republican, democrat or liberal) or what any of them stand for.

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Well this is the 30 days of truth....and I have to be honest, I have experienced both. I have never been addicted to either and I am not going to be a hypocrite. They are not wise choices, however I think Drugs are more serious than alcohol. I have found my self saying to a certain someone, you will have the same amount of fun with your friends weather you are drunk or not. I think that if someone decides to drink they need to do it responsible and just because you drink every once in a while doesn't mean you need to drink to the point of blacking out when you do get the chance. A drink or 3 is ok, 10 is a bit much!

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? 

This question brings me back to the time a friend of mine got into a car accident in High school. I wouldn't say we were extremely close but we were working on it. We had a rocky friendship and dated brothers (Which is what brought us together) We tried to be friends to each other while being loyal to our boyfriends and their family. We told each other secrets that ended up hurting each other in the end. However towards the end of both of our relationships with our boyfriends we became closer. She got into a horrible car accident and when I found out I was at the hospital and ever since then I realized that a friendship is more important that any fight, or disagreement or loyalty to a boyfriend. Her and I are still friends today, and although we both have our own lives I know that we will always be friends. I Love you Jilly!

12/16/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 16 :)

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

I wish I wasn't so addicted to Facebook.  I know I could live without it as I have before it came out, but with all its bad it keeps me in touch with those who no longer live here and that I am still very close with.

12/15/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 13, 14 & 15

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days.
 I like a lot of music, and in the right moments a song usually hits what emotions I have that day, I wouldn't say that I lean on music to help me get through rough patches, I tend to lean on family and god for that.

Day 14: A hero that has let you down.
I don't have any heros that have let me down. My only hero is my mom, she is the strongest person I have ever met and she has never let me down.

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
 This is easy, its Chris. Before we became pregnant with Charleigh we hit a rough spot and took a break from our relationship for a few months, in those months I think we both realized how much we loved each other and needed each other in our lives. Those few months were completely miserable for the both of us, just as the saying goes "you don't know what you got till its gone" We've been together for 6 1/2 years and are madly and crazy in love with each other!

12/12/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 11 & 12

Took a break for the weekend so here are Day 11 and 12 all together and wrapped with a BOW :)

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
People that know me usually compliment me on my hair or smile and how great of a momma I am. Strangers usually compliment me on my daughters, how well mannered they are and how adorable/beautiful they are....Of course they are they are apart of me! :p

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

I wish more people complimented me on my achievements and my hard work. Pretty much give credit where credit is due. It seems that a lot of people tend to think that since I am still young, had babies young, got married young, that I ruined my life. They think I should have done things by the book after high school and finished college, got a career then settled into a family. To them I laugh in their face! I have a great life, and it may not have been as I had originally planed I am still achieving all of my goals that I set out before I had kids, Its just happening in a different order. On a serious note, I have a good life. God has blessed me with everything I have asked for and more. To me, having 2 babies by the time I was 21, being married by 22 and being able to stay at home with them while earning my Bachelors degree & holding a 3.75 GPA is a HUGE achievement, its not easy but I am handling it just fine :) a little credit would be nice ;)

12/10/2010

*30 days of truth* Day 10!

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I can honestly say that I dont feel this way. I believe that everyone that has been in my life was put in it for a reason. Wheather it was to teach me one of many life lessons and help me grow as a person, or to be there to encourage me and grow into great friends I wouldn't say I wish I didn't know them. Those that have left my life did it for their own reasons and everyone currently in my life have been there for a very long time and I thank them for being apart of mine as I am a part of theirs.

12/09/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 9 :)

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

This one is a sad one for me because when I think of it I think of my close friends from high school, We are no where near as close as we used to be but I know if I ever needed anything they would be there for me. So just a little shout out to my friends Collette, Elisha, Molly, Johnathan, & Jill. I love you all and I wish we didn't drift away, and for some of you I wish you still lived here!

12/08/2010

*30 days of truth* Day 8!

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like sh*t.
Luckly for me, no one has made my life hell, well except my mom during my teenage years, but I think anyone with loving parents feel the same, haha I'm just KIDDING, I love my mama, but I know why she was so tough, so Charleigh and Rylee when you are 15-18 expect H-E-L-L! Now for the "treated like sh*t" part, hmmm where should I start my list? All I can say is people are a-holes, and unfortunatly in my short 24 years of life quite a few people treated me badley, pretty much every boyfriend I had, Friends in school, girls I went to middle school with and friends in my adulthood. Theres no reason to name names because Im pretty sure that those who have treated me wrong and read this will get a bit of a gut feeling I'm talking about them, and if you are reading this and that feeling is creeping up in your stomach, then yes I'm talking about you. As the song goes...."Now you'll never see what you've done to me, You can take back you memories they're no good to me, And here's all your lies, you can look me in the eye, with the sad sad look that you wear so well, When you see my face, I hope it give you hell"

12/07/2010

*30 days of truth* Day 7!

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
This one is SUPER easy, of course my family! I have 2 wonderful daughters any mom could ask for, they make waking up everyday a privilage and the are my motivation and inspiration behind everything I do. I was also blessed with the most amazing husband a girl could ever wish for. He works extremely hard for us even if that means he doesnt get to see us as much as he would like. He provides us with everything that we need, and usually what ever I ask for :) I am a pretty spoiled girl, but I am so thankful for everything God has given us!

12/06/2010

Need a lil motivation!

It seems like each year around this time I get to where I want to get serious about weight loss, I usually do really good for a few months then hit a wall that I just cannot climb over. I have been following an awesome blog http://glamglory.blogspot.com/ She is my inspiration, she has lost 52 lbs to date and looks absolutely AMAZING! I want to look amazing as well! I have finally come to terms that this weight loss can only be achieved by a permanent life style change, not just working out till I reach a goal then call it good. So I am starting my plan of attack on post-baby body on the 1st of Jan. New Year, New Start. This gives me time to put together my plan. I just started my Nutritional Science class and what a great class to take to start off this journey! I will be able to learn what I need to obtain my goals, in the form of Life style changes! I have found a Beginning work out to help me build up my endurance during the winter months so when spring hits I can hit the ground RUNNING, Literally!
The 15 week 5k Run/Walk Training Plan:
http://www.active.com/women/Articles/A_5k_running_walking_training_plan.htm?page=2
Once I reach week 15 I will move on to more vigorous running and adding more to my workout, My goal at the end of this is to not only loose some weight but to move onto p90x which we have had for a year and have done a total of 1 1/2 times....yea its hard!
I am starting to put a list together of things I want to change in my diet and add to my diet. Along with adding vitamins and minerals and protein....lots of lean proteins! My ultimate goal is to loose 45 lbs by Jan. 1st 1012. But my Beginning goal is to complete the 15 week run plan, then from their I will determine how much weight my next goal will be. I will of course have small goals for my diet changes! So stay tuned and offer as much inspiration and motivation you can give, I am going to need it!

*30 days of truth* Day 6!

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

I hope that I never have to go to my childs funeral, I hope that they have safe lives and are never put in a life threatning situation. I hope they have long, healthy and happy lives!

12/05/2010

*30 Days of Truth* Day 4 & 5

 

Since we were out of town this weekend I will post both days now Smile

 

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

This one is hard for me because I tend to forgive and forget rather easy when someone does me wrong. I don’t like to hold a grudge or anything like that. But I don’t let things that hurt me go easily, I need to forgive a few people in that were apart of my life and also thank them. John, I forgive you for cheating on me with Kiersten, it was hard for me to get over and accept that you no longer wanted me to be apart of you life, However! I need to thank you for that same reason, had you not done what you did, my life could be very different, and sad. I could still be with you, unhappy that you are never faithful, scared because you don’t take life seriously and unstable with my future, but because of your action 6 1/2 years ago, I now have a wonderful, faithful relationship with a great man that works incredibly hard to provide for our family, I also have 2 of the most amazing little girls I could ever dream of. My life is quiet perfect and everything I have ever wanted. So again, I thank you! 


Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

There are a lot of things I hope to do in my life, I want to travel, more specifically I want to go to Paris, I always have. My mom and Memere are from France just north of Paris, in Nancy, France. Chris & I also want travel to Ireland, the pictures of the country side is just so pretty we would love to go there someday. I also want to take the girls on a family vacation to Walt Disney World, take them to the ocean, and watch them get married and have children.

12/03/2010

*30 days of truth* Day 3!

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.


Wow, this one is hard, there's so many different things I hold onto that I wish I could go back and change. There is one that really sticks in my head, and it isn't the easiest to share! This has haunted me since I was in 7th grade, that summer my Grandma Betty passed away (My Dad's Mom) She was an incredible person, she was someone very important and active in mine and my sisters lives. She was more than just a grandma to me, she was my 2nd mom for the 12 short years that I knew her. I spent everyday after school at her house, and almost every day during the summer. That summer we went over just like any typical day, we got to the door and it was locked but we could hear the TV on, we knocked and grandpa came unlocked the door and let us in. Grandma was sitting in her chair sleeping so we went in quietly not to wake her.


Hours passed and she stayed sleeping, we went out to play with the neighborhood kids and about an hour later Grandpa came running out saying he couldn't wake up grandma. My sisters and I went inside and I tried to wake her buy shaking her leg and saying her name. I told my Grandpa to call my mom who worked a few blocks away and he said "No, don't bother your mom at work" so I snuck into my Grandpas room and used his phone to call my mom "Mom, we cant get grandma to wake up, we have tried to shake her and she wont wake up, Grandpa didn't want me to call but I don't know what to do" My mom rushed over immediately and called 911, the ambulance came and the last sight I had of my Grandma was being carried out of her house and put into an ambulance.


We stayed with the neighbor while my parents went to the hospital. About an hour later my parents came to pick us up, they said Grandma was ok, she had a heart attack and that she will be in the hospital for a while, we were going to go pick up lunch and take it to grandpa. I remember sitting in the car, going up Ash St, pass the cemetery and thinking, Grandma is going to die. We got to the hospital and My aunts were there waiting to tell us the news that Grandma had another heart attack while the Dr.'s were putting in a pace maker and she didn't make it.


Why did I have to think that she was going to die? If I didn't think that would she had lived longer?  What if we stayed in the house to play? Would we have woken her up? What if I tried to wake her sooner, would they had a better chance to save her?


I remember being at her viewing and just loosing it on my dads shoulder, I cried so hard and  wanted so bad for her to wake up and be ok. I miss her so much still and wish that she was able to be there through all of my achievements. I know she is still with us in spirit and I firmly believe that her and my Grandpa are watching over me and my daughters. I have to let go of these feelings that it was my fault and know that her purpose here on earth was served and that she went to a much more happy and beautiful place, she may not be here in body but her spirit lives on forever. I love you Grandma!

12/02/2010

*30 days of truth* Day 1 and 2

So I completely forgot to post my day 1 yesterday, so lucky you, I will post both days today~

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.


This list could go on forever, as they say you are your own worst critic right! Well as any mom can relate....having babies was anything but kind to my body, extra weight, stretch marks and that pooch of a belly that I wish I could just cut off! I have tried diet and exercise, I loose about 10-15 lbs but hit a wall and get so aggravated that I just give up. I need to lose about 50 lbs to be at MY ideal weight, probably about 35 to look great! Of course Chris doesn't help he always tells me I look good the way I am and when He first met me I was TOOOOO skinny, 6 years ago when we first met I was 125 lbs, and yes, a bit sickening. Whats funny is that 6-8 years ago when I was tiny, I thought I was fat....boy what was I thinking!  However at that time I was more active, I was a volleyball coach, on the dance team and took gym classes like weight lifting and aerobics...(HEY MOLLY Remember those days!!) Even though my diet consisted of pizza pockets and Wendy's 99 cent nuggets I was active with an outstanding metabolism...which also disappears when you birth children. Oh and apparently each child you have ages you, My husband had a pic of when Charleigh was first born and "Look how young you look" yea ass, I was 20!!!!

                                                   This was My HS Senior Pic!
THIS MAMA NOW.....in a pic that only shows my face! HA

Ok I'll add a body shot for you to compare...

                                                         Aint he handsome! I <3 him!!




Day 2: Something you love about yourself.


Lets get beyond the looks and go deep....HAHAHA, I love me! Yes I would love me even more if I were skinnier, with better fitting clothes, BUT I do love the person that I am. I love to have fun, I crack myself up on a daily bases and I have an awesome personality. I am sweet and caring, and tend to make sure everyone is happy before I am, and put myself aside a lot of the time. Oh and that I have the awesome power of giving life, I have 2 beautiful little girls, thats amazing in itself!
                                                          RYLEE 2 1/2 ALMOST 3
CHARLEIGH-4YRS


BABY CHARLEIGH


BABY RYLEE


See you tomorrow for day 3!!!

11/24/2010

30 days of truth!

I am going to do the 30 days of truth and get real personal....maybe you will learn something new about me or find something you can relate to. I will start this truth on Dec. 1st....stay tuned!

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.


day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like sh*t.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.) Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

11/22/2010

Long at last!

We have finally gotten around to taking new family pics!!! Here are a few of my favorites!

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….and to show you how cooperative Rylee was that day…

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11/21/2010

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11/17/2010

Update on my 101 in 1001

So this Jan. I made a list....maybe some of them are a little above what I can accomplish and I got a little lot sidetracked, but starting today I'm back on track. Heres my list and the ones I have accomplished!

Here is my list!


Start Jan. 1st 2010  Restart 11/17/2010 completed by Sept. 28th 2012

1.start a journal for each of the girls and write them a letter once a month.

2. Finish Charleigh's scrapbook

 3. Make Rylee's scrapbook

 4. Do a walk for a cause

 5. Put away $1.00 a day for 1000 days then spend it on a trip.

6. Learn to play golf.
7. Put away $1.00 a day for the girls for christmas next year 2010. Repeat for 2011 and 2012

8. Tell chris & the girls I love them when Im upset with them.
9. Read 50 new books (5/50)
10. Try a new recipie once a month
11. Exercise everyday except sundays weekends
12.join and attend church

13. Get the girls involved in chruch

14 Write my friends letters
15. Take more me time
16. Find a sitter & go on date night once a month.
17. Make a list of my 101 favorite songs
18. Blog at least once a month
19. Make my 101 list into a scrapbook
20. Take a pic of me doing everything on my 101 list
21. Go for a hike
22. Take a picture of myself every 30 days to see my work out progress
23. No more soda
24. Learn how to crochet
25. No eating out during the week
26. Take a picture of my girls at least once a month

27. Make homemade cards for b-days and holidays
28. Find a pen pal
29. Volunteer 10 times

30. buy a fireproof box, fill it with personal items like the girls hospital bracelets and t-shirts
31. Keep a journal and write in it everyday
32. Make another 101 list before the end of this one
33. Send a card to: someone I know, someone I don't, and someone I love
34. Explore Kansas

35. Donate to charity

36. Take a cake decorating class
37. Dance in the rain with my girls (Do this more often!)
38. Have a dinner in with chris

39. Drink 2 glasses of water a day
40. Throw a party other than a b-day party
41.write a love note and mail it to chris
42. Find something to collect

43. Campout in the yard 3 times
44. Have an outdoor movie night

45.make 3 new friends

46. Ignore the negative, concentrate on the possitive

47. Go on a weekend get away just me and my mom

48. Perform 5 random acts of kidness
49. Do something good for the earth

50.do something I haven't done since I was a kid

51. Write my mom a letter
52. Start and keep a girls night out once a month
53. write my memere a letter every month
54. Lose the baby weight!!
55. Be more confident
56. Attend story time at the library once a month

57. Get another tattoo (Planning on March 2011)
58. Go to a dance class
59.go to a wine tasting
60. Buy 10 new nail polishes
61. paint my nails once a week
62. Send a care package to a solider I don't know
63. Read the bible front to back
64. Find 20 bible verses that mean something to me
65. Complete 200 miles in 300 days
66. Make a list of 100 reasons of why I love chris and give it to him
67. Teach Charleigh a dance routine and let her perform it (Does the Dougie Count?)
68. Dance like crazy 1 day a week
69.sing at the top of my lungs to my favorite songs
70. Start a chain letter for kids with stickers!
71. Have a spa day
72. Try a new resturant
73. Buy a new ipod
74. Learn a new word every day and use it
75. Go on a honeymoon finally!
76. Be able to run a mile without dying
77. Pray everyday at meal time w/the girls
78. Take and send out a family photo
79. Decorate for every holiday
80. Stop living in sweat pants (can only wear them 1 day a week)
81. Host a cookie exchange party
82. Read a night time story every night
83. Rekindle an old friendship
84. Host a playdate once a month
85. Go back to school for early childhood edu.
86. Get charleigh and rylee in a mommy's day out program
87. Take vitamins everyday
88. Get the girls baptized
89. Go on a double date 5 times
90. Do not buy any more sweats
91. Spend more on my self
92. No more impuls buys

93.buy and wear more earrings

94. Buy and learn to walk in heals (again)
95.lose 50 lbs and reward myself

96. Follow through with # 95

97. Spend a whole day in bed as a family

98. Learn to not stress out so much

99. Realize that its ok that the laundrys not done, toys all over the floor and dinners not ready and its 7pm....its OK (Finally I am ok with this!)

100. Pay myself $1.00 for every accomplished item

101. Pay chris $1.00 for every item I don't

11/15/2010

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11/12/2010

Christmas Shopping Started in September!

This year we had the opportunity to start Christmas shopping in sept. this week I finished shopping for the entire family on weds. I am so happy and excited that its all over and now I just have to sit back and wait for Christmas, only 43 more days! Since most of my family read my blog I will only post what I got for Charleigh and Rylee. This year Christmas consists of toys geared towards my 2 1/2 year old and my 4 year old and their obsessions :)

Rylee:
Pram baby stroller
Wood baby Crib
Fur Real walking Kitty
Baby Alive Baby All Better
TeaCup Piggie
Scentsy Scent Buddy Lenny the Lamb with Lavender and Vanilla Scent pack (So Soft, Cute and Smells SOO Good!)
Plush Princess Dora
Plus Baby Boots
and of course Purple Back Pack complete with Map in side pocket :)
Dvd: Handy Manny's Big Race (or something along those lines)

Stocking Stuffers:
Sunglasses
Pet Pals game for Leapster 2
Hair accessories
Nail Polish
Mini My Little ponies
Dvd: Minies Bowtique
Charleigh:
V.Reader and Olivia ebook
Squinkies Cupcake and bubble pack
Set of 7 Disney Princess Barbies
Super Tall Doll house for barbies to fit in
Baby Alive Baby All Gone
Teacup Piggie
Scentsy Scent Buddy ROARBERT the Lion with same scent pack as Ry
Furry Frenzy set and extra furry animal
Dvd: Oliver and Company

Stocking Stuffers:
Sunglasses
Mr. and Mrs. figures
Hair Accessories
Nail Polish
Pet Pals & Spongebob games  for her leapster explorer
Dvd: Toy story 3

Oh and I can List some of Chris' since he ruined his surprises and got them last month
iPod Nano-newest generation with engraving :)
Nike+iPod
and some iPod accessories like an arm band, car and wall chargers.

The rest is a secret :)

I am so super excited for Christmas and seeing the girls faces Christmas morning! Even more so Christmas at my parents is going to be great with my sister and BIL. My BIL Blake is in the Marine CORPS and is currently at training in Cali. for 6 weeks before he deploys to Afghanistan in Jan. So having everyone home for Christmas is going to be special. We are also planning my sisters baby shower!!! We are going to have it in Jan, as well so Blake can par-take in the shower before he deploys. Unfortunately he wont be able to come home for the baby's birth, but his deployment is only 7 mo long. Chelsea is due April 16th....14 days before my B-day :)

Before Christmas is Thanksgiving.....and this year we will be traveling to see our Family on Chris' side and see Aunt Denise's new house!!! We are very excited to see everyone again, most haven't seen the girls since Kerrisa's baby shower over a year ago! I love the Holidays!

11/05/2010

Getting Caught Up

Its been so long since my last blog, I guess I just got too caught up in life. So much has changed in the last 6 months. I took on so much and I loved every minute of it until I realized how much of myself was missing. I wanted to do and be it all, the awesome completely involved mom, wife, friend and citizen. But where was Rhianna in all of this? I lost focus of what was really  important and why it was important. Getting involved in too many things with too many people left me gasping for air. I realized my views of people and situations was hazed by others opinions and actions. I tried too hard to make others happy and forgot about my happiness.

 Looking back before it all I thought I was miserable, sitting at home every day by myself with the girls who were 1 1/2 and 3 at the time, twiddling my thumbs thinking "There has to be more than this".  So I left my comfy boring little bubble, ventured out to make friends and be more active....something most stay at home moms strive for. Here a year later I have come full circle and realized that  those days were the simple days, and I was most happy then. Not exhausted by the days events of who said what, and why so and so does not like me today. Not worrying if my friends were still going to be my friends after I spoke my mind or their minds that they were to apprehensive to say to another. If I had to look like the bad guy for that then it was a risk I was willing to take...where did it leave me? Well, with less people in my life of course. Its funny how quickly people turn what they previously said into "No. Actually that is what Anna said." or "I haven't a clue to why she would say that" My "friends" were not the friends they portrayed themselves to be....maybe in the beginning, sure. After it was all said and done I can honestly say it was for the better.Who needs or wants friends like that? Am I completely innocent in all this? NO!  Maybe I should  not have been the one who repeated the things others had said, but if I am asked about it I'm not going to lie. Maybe I should have kept each of my friendships in our circle private and not allowed them to overlap into the others, but we were all friends I didn't see why secrets were supposed to be kept from the others.

I know that people have different perspectives on what a friend is. A friend to me is someone who is there to make you laugh when everything else says cry. Someone who looks for the best in you when you cant see it yourself. They know whats going on before you even have to say your having a bad day. They are there looking out for you and have your back when the rest of the world has turned against you.  I guess my perspective of a friend is what most people wish there friends are but does anyone really follow this?

Now that I have been through this experience I now know that I don't need to have people in my life to occupy my time. With  less distractions I can focus on me and my happiness. I can put my time and energy into my marriage and my family. Thank you Chris for always supporting me and having my back when it seemed like no one else did. You are my rock, and I love you more and more each day.

I now have my freedom back.

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5/11/2010

SOoooooo Excited!!!!

This month has been hard for me, but very rewarding. I started my "Get Serious" Diet and exercise plan. I have cut fast foods and fried food completely out of my diet, they make me sick and if it isn't coming back up its doing it out the other end.....not exactly the best thing! A couple months ago we switched to Whole grains/ bread/pasta. And this month I have cut soda completely, I only drink water and have maybe had a couple sips of soda 2 times....but I have stuck with the water thing which is a HUGE deal cause I hate water (Who ever though up the crystal lite packets...you are a god!) Oh and we also switched to Turkey meat! I have only made a handful of dishes with it but it is Y-U-M!

The past 3 weeks I started the Jillian Micheal's 30 day shred and it has helped A LOT, this month I went from 183-ish lbs to 170! OMG! That was Charleigh at 9-11 mo old lol! for 3 weeks I did Workout 1, the first week it was a Lil intense but slowly I got to where I could handle it, and it makes me sweat! Last night and tonight I have done work out 2 and O-M-G~ that ain't no joke! I can barley breath at the end of it. But I know all my hard work is totally slowly paying off! I have set my new goal for the month to lose 13 more lbs by June 11th. We will see how it goes!

P.S. If anyone wants to get me a reward for my first 13 lb loss, I would love the Jillian Micheal's Fat Burner and Calorie Insinuator Combo Pack ;) LOL, Here's to the Next month of a skinnier me!

5/06/2010

Need to surface

   Lately I feel like I am treading water just to get by, I feel so swamped lately with life. I am constantly questioning my parenting and the way that I deal with the conflicts my girls have 5,6, 20 times a day. I have noticed that I will always favor Rylee when they are fighting over something because Charleigh doesn't throw a fit over it, and if she does its nothing major and I can get her onto something else. Charleigh has been an angel for me, she is an incredibly amazing kid. She listens to me, never acts out and is just a huge blessing to me as my first child....Rylee is the exact opposite. Rylee non the less is a huge blessing as well, but a much harder one to humble.
  
   Then there is the never ending wife duties of housekeeper....or as I call myself the live in maid. If its not the kids toys, its the husbands shoes I am tripping over. The pile of dishes that no matter how many loads I do the sink is always full, and the huge monster of laundry over taking my bed that I need to fold but just REALLY don't want to. I need a nanny just so she can take my girls out for the day so I can clean that house without cleaning up the mess they made while I was cleaning their room.  Why cant they just sit still long enough for me to clean one room with out a mess being made at the same time?

   After this there is the Mommy duties, I am constantly questioning myself in this area as well....trying to do the best things for my girls, Like the 5,000 Preschool workbooks I bought last Sept. for Charleigh and she has only done 2 pages. Why didn't I stick with it? Why do I feel like there is not enough time in the day to be mom, wife and me?

   Oh! and then there is the Friend me...This is the area that I think I do OK in but there is always that conscious asking if I handled this situation OK or if I should have done it this way. I am always hoping that I am being the best friend that I can. I always try to make sure that if there is something bothering a friend that I pick up on it and am their for them, lately I feel that I have been so concerned with me that I have been slacking to them.

   And last but not least the Daughter/Sister me.....UGH! I know this area I suck in! My little sister is moving and have I made it known to her that its a huge step and that I wont be close anymore....does she care? Will she even miss me? I know she will miss her nieces but me? Then there is my mom, she has WAY to much on her plate, and I fear a huge breakdown soon, with my sister leaving, I just don't know how well she is going to handle it and I feel that lately she hasn't been able to really express to me here fears and frustrations.

    With all of this going on I have NO Me, Me time, I'm too busy being a Mom, Wife, Nanny/housekeeper, Sister, Daughter and Friend that I am exhausted at the end of the day that my me time is 20 minutes with Jillian Micheal's sweating my butt off (literally, I've lost 2 jean sizes:)) then  I hit the shower and hit the pillow....oh and Chris still isn't home  yet tonight cause he's in BFE, KS 3 hrs away for a baseball game...CRAP!
 
  I need to surface and catch my breath, I'm usually great at this juggling gig, but lately its getting to be way to much, I need a month of me time, a year of sleep and 10 years worth of no headaches. PLEASE!?!?!?

What am I thinking...I got laundry to fold, rooms to clean and a dinner to make!

4/28/2010

My Birthday Week.......SUCKS!

So Friday is my birthday and I am really excited for it, Kristle is throwing me a Lil party and I haven't had a party since I was oooohh 18? I'm turning the big 2-4, getting SOOOO old lol!

So Monday, was OK I was suppose to have the whole night with Chris since he is working every night this week except Thursday, he even has to work all weekend from like 7am till at least after 9pm. So I was planning Chicken Tacos and a movie, then I get a text...."Hey babe I have a softball game to play to night at 7." Which translates to Ill be home for dinner, then leave at 6:30-8:30....there went the night....He said I'll be home right after the game and we can spend some time together.....8:30 came and another text "Babe its a double header, I'll be home as soon as its over" Translation: Another hour and 15 min.  OK, work out and bed then.

Tuesday, Chris works, then has a baseball game in some city not here, be home around 10:30 pm. Rylee put my phone in the toilet, then the touch screen stopped working, few hours later I lost it! Charleigh had a HUGE break down when my mom left, took 20 minutes to calm her....Bath and then the bed battle, 8PM, put Rylee in bed, shut the door after kisses and she screams bloody murder as if some one is in there beating her! OMG! Then the other Lil bug, after 3 hours of "Charleigh go to bed" she finally did. I guess when mommy is working out it looks fun to join her and copy her moves, Its hard to say "You better get your booty back in bed" during Circuit 3 CardioAhhhh the Shower!

Wednesday. THANK YOU JESUS! Rylee slept in till 10:45am a RECORD!!! Meanwhile, Charleigh came into my room wanting to cuddle at 9am, 1 1/2 hours of cuddles with my baby girl is amazing :) Thank you girls for an awesome morning....Now please stop screaming at each other and fighting over the baby dolls stroller before I throw it out the door! Kristle came over and its always so nice to talk with her. She makes me laugh so much. I love her!!!

Thursday....nothing to big planned, but oh Shopping for a birthday outfit :) I love My husband, He is the GREATEST MAN EVER!!!!

Please let the rest of the week perk up :)

4/27/2010

Just Hit the Delete Button!

Where to start this post? I know I will probably get some hate mail or whatever for this, but its coming out and I cant stop it!

I've come to realize that no matter what there is always that person or group of people that always know everything, and think they are better than the next person. I cant stand it that some people have a stick up their butt and think they are so much smarter, prettier, or more successful than others, yes this may be true since we are all different but they shouldn't make people feel bad or rub it in. I have also had enough of the crap that they call RUG. Its the same thing every week, the same topics come up and the same stupid drama each month. Its old and stupid. This is why I have removed myself of the crap!

Then the good 'ol DREAM VS. FHL battle. Maybe its just me but this is really stupid! Why is it that "they" think that there group is so much different than ours? In reality it is quite the same, FHL has done a benefit sale for a child with a disease, we have done get together with food involved, we reach out to our community and host PLAYDATES! Oh wait that is the only thing that we do NOT have in common with DREAM, We host weekly playdates! Dream has done the Benefit sale, get together with food involved (They just call it a recipe swap) and what have they done for the community as a whole? Maybe I have missed this but helping 3 girls go to prom doesn't do crap for the community....it just heightens the High School experience.

But there defense to this question is Well we plan to help Pregnant teens, or Adopt A  grandparent.....what does this have to do for the community??? Absolutely nothing....its helps those 2 categories Pregnant Teens and Old People....its nice and I salute them for helping but maybe with the Teens they should advocate Abstinence or Education on Safe Sex??? How about offer free condoms, or other forms of birth control, offer advice and guidance to end the cycle of teen pregnancy? Junction City has the Highest Teen Pregnancy rate in KS, do something to offer teens other options then having sex, because if they know they can just get help from this one group then why not do it?

They will also say that Dream is better or different because they want to become a NON Profit, and become National....sorry but when did recipe swaps become material for being a non profit? Guess what Ladies there is probably a group of FB doing the EXACT same thing you are in another Town...Guess what there are 13537873 groups on FACEBOOK and probably ran the same way as yours....Oh Wait that is FHL!

Maybe I am bitter, or stressed...or could just care less cause you are not pulling the wool over my eyes...I give it 2 more months before they are worn out and dwindling down, because you cannot run a non profit with 2 people! Let alone a facebook group with 5 active members and 93 inactive ones....Make that 92 :)

This plus the annoyance of FB status' of how immature "someone" is or  "if you have something to say then say it"  and the "OMG KISS MY ASS CAUSE I'M AMAZING" I have deleted a few more off the friends list....because you haven't added shit to my life so poof you are gone, just hit the delete button!

I have come to realize who my friends are, and who just wants me to be a number on their group. I rather have 5 amazing close friends then 93 acquaintances that only want my friendship when its a convince to them.

3/16/2010

Just a lil somthing :)

Today Rylee decided to try potty training (again) she picked out a pull-up to put on, went and sat on the potty and went. Last time she wanted to do it for about a week and then gave up. Hopefully this time with a little more encouragement, a pull-up cake and dora panties we will be on the road to no more diapers! Everyday she is getting bigger and bigger and her little personality gets more and more complex. She is quite the lil' diva and its her way or the highway and if you touch or do something of hers that she doesnt like she will let you know! Oh and she is a mommy's girl 1000% and I am her mommy and no one else can have me (she will only share with sissy but any other lil kid better watch out!)

Last night Charleigh and I went grocery shopping, on the way home the song "How Low Can You Go" by Ludacris came on and from the back seat I hear "Mommy turn it up this is my song" and seeing my 3 yr old raise the roof and wiggle her hips was the funniest thing I have seen in a while! Now I did'nt know that on Saturday when she was with Nana and Aunt Chelsea she had done the same thing and they got a video of it using Aunt Chelsea's Phone. Looks like I got a dancer in the family.....just like her mama! She also says the most random things you could think of and a lot of the things she says are just SO grown up.


I finished my first two Pre-req. Classes last month and I recieved A's in both of them! (Go me) I have started my next class, which is Sociology. Its a lot different then the classes and a little more challenging but I think I will manage. Chris is getting ready to start Baseball and Soccer Season (AKA Busy Busy Season) Which anymore with all that he does I dont know why that makes me sad. It used to be just Baseball and Basketball season but now with him doing football too he is busy from Baseball-Basketball...or in months Mid March- Mid Feb. with small breaks in-between season. Makes it hard to plan things for us to do as a family, because he is gone 3-4 nights a week and some weekends. It sucks for me but he loves being involved in sports, and its starting to rub off onto Charleigh, she has become interested in Basketball and Baseball. So that makes Chris excited!

3/14/2010

The Big 2!

 Yep, thats right no more babies in the Nelson Household, Miss Rylee-Anne Jael turned 2 this week, My baby is now a toddler! I really cannot believe it, so now Im at the crossroads of, to have a baby or to not have a baby. I want to have one more just to get it over with, then our family will be complete. We can get though the Dipers and toliet trainning and be completely finished, or we could do as Chris wants wait 3 more yrs and then start all over. OR just be content with the 2 little girls God has blessed us with. But what if God wants to bless us just one more time, like in the near future??? I guess we will just have to wait and see!


Rylee's party was a HIT! and so stinkin cute ;) Her Cupcake pops were so cute and I added chocolate dipped pretzles as well. The little kids LOVED decorating all the little cupcakes and everyone had fun. Rylee was very clingy which did not surprise me at all, she does not like attention from big groups of people, and is very shy with large crowds, probably did help that every one was dotting on her! Here are some wonderful pictures from my Girl Friend Kristle....She is a great photographer!
Charleigh all Dressed Up!


Rylee, being Shy!




2/28/2010

~Womens Conference~ Thank you Jesus!!!!!!

I had an AMAZING time this weekend, Thank you Kristle for ginving me the opportunity to go, learn more about God and How to make more out of our Friendship. You are an amazing friend and I cannot express how much you mean to me....Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

This weekend I attended an Amazing Girlfirends Womens Conference with a group of friends, It was so moving, so enlightening! I learned that in order to have a relationship of any kind, be it friendship or with a spouse you first must have a healthy relationship with God. You cannot judge anyone by their differnces the only one who can judge is Jesus. You must not fall into temptaions of evil and partaking in evil to others.

I took a class about intimacy in your Marriage and that you have to protect you husband from temptaion, and you must be the one who temps your husband. You must create a hedge of protection in your marriage, and also be appealing to your husband.
"Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to Prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control"
~ 1 Corinthians 7:5 

  "Love is patient, Love is Kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Its always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always presevers." ~ 1 Corinthians 13:4 - 13:7


I also took a class about bringing up your children in Gods word and teaching them to have a relationship with Jesus. As parents we must help our Children know Jesus, and know Scripture. We must teach it and live it. Be an example of Gods word so they can be examples too.

     "Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these"" ~Matthew 19:14

   "Jesus said,  "I tell you the truth, anyone who will not recieve the kingdom of God like a little Child will never enter it"" ~Mark 10:15

I took so much information away from the conference, so much to reflect on and use. I was not brought up as a Christian, or practiced any faith. I was "married into it" as I say. My husband comes from a very strong Christian background and when I was pregnate with Charleigh he would pray for me and through the pain of my pregnancy, and this is when I first saw the works of the Lord Jesus. Chris has shown me his faith and what it can do, and I believe because of this we have the strong marriage and family we have. This past January I decided that I too wanted to be a part of this faith. I have commited my soul and body to Jesus and his works. I still have a lot of questions and a LOT of learning but one step at a time. We found a wonderful Church to join and we love it. We are slowly becoming involved and Charleigh will be going to preschool there. I cannot wait to see what purpose the Lord has for me and I am really excited about accepting him in my life.

2/26/2010

A Blessing in Disguse?

            So the past few month we have been working with PAT (Parents as Teachers) Its a program for the girls that track their development progress for their age group. Charleigh is above and beyond her age group and is really a witty little girl! She is very smart, and its too funny some of the things she has to say. Last week we had a meeting at our house with our Parent educator Mrs. Stacy. She used to be a teacher for 9 yrs at the catholic school here in Manhatta. Charleigh is at the point of being able to establish items that are similar or different and tell why. Mrs. Stacy showed Charleigh a pair of shoes, one pink and one blue. Mrs Stacy asked Charleigh "Are these the same or different" Charleigh said the same and she told Mrs. Stacy they were the same because they were shoes. Mrs. Stacy asked if she would wear them together as a pair and Char said no, because they didnt match. After that she showed Charleigh 2 blue shoes and asked the same series of questions, When Charleigh was asked "Well would you wear them together?" Charleigh said in a very matter of fact way "No, Im not a boy, Im a girl" It was too funny! I love that she is associating colors with gender and she is only 3!

           Now Rylee is a whole different story. As most of you know Rylee was premature, and very small, when she was a baby the doctor had told me that Rylee would be behind developmentaly of children born at full term. I had never told anyone, except a close friend, that even when I was pregnate I had a feeling in the back of my mind that there would be something wrong with Rylee, like something wrong with her development....when she was born early  I could still tell that she was going to be behind others.

           A couple months ago we did the screening with Mrs. Stacy to see where each girl was on the scale....story of my life! If you know me and my daughters they are very little girls, tall but skinny minnies! They were never on the scales for their weight and the doctors always questioned about their eating habbits, you know my kids eat like cows!  So I was excited to see just how smart Miss Charleigh was, and she was all the way at the top of the chart....but I of course already knew that :)

          I was aprehensive of Rylees test, she was right where she was supposed to be in Social/Emotional, Fine Motor and Gross Motor Development, but pretty behind in her Language and Communication Development. So much so that Mrs. Stacy had recommended a Speech Pathologist.  I feel horrible, like I have failed her. Why did I have to think she was going to be behind? Why did I let her get behind? Maybe if I didnt think like that when I was pregnate she would have been fine, Like her sister. I know Im not suppose to compare her and Charleigh but it is so hard they are on 2 different ends of the scale. This past week we went to dinner with a couple that has a daughter that is 1 month older than Rylee, She was talking so much, counting Items, making animal noises, pointing to animals and identifying them....none of which Rylee is even close to.

       I think that Mrs. Stacy was sent to us, not knowing that her daughter is Rylees age, was born just as Early as Rylee  & is at the same development as Rylee. She told me that it is crazy how much her and Rylee are a ike in there progress, coincidence I think not. I think Mrs. Stacy was sent to us, to help us with Rylee, and that we will help our girls together, I think Mrs. Stacy is a blessing in Diguese!

2/24/2010

Cupcake Party!!!!

I have been planing Rylee's 2nd Birthday party and I have decided to do a Cupcake Theme!

I am going to make a BIG TOP cupcake as her Birthday Cake, and then a bunch of little cupcakes for all the guest to decorate. I am making her a Hot Pink shirt that will say Birthday Girl on the front and Rylee on the back. Her tutu I am making is Hot Pink and Black and Charleigh will have one too. Charleigh's Shirt will say big sister on the front and her name on the back. My Friend Kristle is going to take Pics of them in their outfits :) I am so excited!!!!

I have decided to make Cupcake Pops and Cupcake sugar cookies for the goodie bags, That will be an adventure!!!

Cupcake Cookies, Mine will be less Christmas-y


Cupcake pops :)

2/09/2010

6 more weeks of Winter?

This winter sucks! Its so cold and that little vermit groundhog dude saw his shadow....6 more weeks....really?

My classes have been going good. I like the classes I have but they get a little boring and repetative. Charleigh has been in gymnastics for a month now in the yellow class and she loves it! We are enrolling her for preschool at our church for fall! I cant believe my baby is going into PRESCHOOL!

Speaking of growing Babies! Miss Rylee turns 2 in a month!!!! AHHHHH! We are having a cupcake party and lots of our new friends :)

Well not to much happening this month....but maybe something spectacular will happen that is worth blogging about :)

1/27/2010

One of THOSE days!

This morning we are getting ready for gymnstaics, no one wants to help mommy get ready, and we are fussy and crying! Char wouldnt get out of bed until the 15th time I asked her so she had to eat breakfast in the car, yum poptarts! we get to gymnastics, char gets her locker and takes off her shoes and coat and goes off to her class. Rylee had to stay with mommy and was P!SSED! all she wanted was to go with sister and do class too, but she's to small to be in sister's class, so I had to hold her to keep her from running onto the gym floor, for an hour, kicking and screaming......Thank god gymnastics is over, now the fight to get shoes and coats back on and buckled into the car.

We have errands! YAY! :( I decided to take the double stroller instead of a cart to walmart since RY refuses to sit in it. Get in the stroller walk around devils town (walmart) and my children are screaming and pitchin a fit (yep I was THAT mom today at the store) I finally get our stuff done at walmart, and as I'm walking out I mummble "I hate Walmart".

Now off to the mall for Lunch with NANA.......that its self is nuff said, but I will go into details :)


Char wants Chinese, ok so we Char and I will share a plate and Nana and RY will share a plate, good right! WRONG, Char wants her own plate and not share her food with mom.....so that was a battle I choose not to fight.....fine whatever, have your own food. She eats 3 bites and is done, so I go to eat it and she freaks!

Finally we are done with lunch and I let them ride those little rides there, 3 of them, and they fight over who rides what, (most of them are double seats) so I said enough we are goin home....more fits, screaming, ect.....all i want to do is get in the car.....and I do, after fighting over who sits in which carseat, and the struggle of the buckling....at this point both girls are screaming and crying....so what do i do? I blast the stereo....really I do! I just want 2 sec. of no screaming, no crying, no fighting....we get home and as soon as I walk into the door I smell DOG POOP! So i put the girls down for nap, open the bathroom door where we put toby when we leave, and he pooped all over the floor, walked in it jumped on the toilet, the counter, the bathtub....there is poop foot prints everywhere!

Can I just give up now? Can today please be over?



Nope its only 2:30! Gotta keep truckin, throw that smile back on and finish this horrible day!

1/18/2010

Positive Light

This year has started out great, I have been accepted and enrolled into online classes to get my bachelors degree in Early Childhood Eduction. I am concentraing on the the infant/toddler age group and I hope to be the lead teach at a preschool in 4 short years! I really miss the preschool I worked at as an assitant after school teacher, I think about it a lot and realized that was what I want to be when I grew up, or atleast when the girls are old enough to be in school lol!

I have also made some great new friends, One girl in paticular, Kristle. She is the same age as me and has children in the same age group as the girls. Her and her family have been through so much, Her husband is medically retired military, he was hit by an IUD in Iraq, He also suffers from PTSD. But as an outsider you wouldnt have a clue. They are such a happy family and contribute to those in need in a heartbeat.  We have a lot in common and have been putting together a lot of fundraisers for those in need. She gives me so much inspiration and positive out look. 

I am so excited in Feburary I am attending the Amazing Girlfriend Conference with Kristle and a group of other girls. I cannot wait! Its going to be so much fun and such a great way to meet others!

We have started at our new church this month also, The Univeristy Christian Church in manhattan. Its a great church and offers so many programs for Charleigh and Rylee. They have a full band that plays at the contemperary service and they are truly amazing. I am trying to find out if they have a cd out so we can get to know the songs better :)

Charleigh starts gymnastics back up this week, she has been moved up out of the mommy and me to the beginners yellow group. I am so proud of her and cannot wait to see her blossom as a little gymnast! I think this fall we will start Rylee in the Mommy and me class, she wants to be just like her big sister and has already learned her summersaults thanks to a little nudge from Charleigh!

I am so excited to see what the rest of 2010 has in store for us!

1/08/2010

Here is my list!
Start Jan. 1st 2010 completed by Sept. 28th 2012
1.start a journal for each of the girls and write them a letter once a month.
2. Finish Charleigh's scrapbook
3. Make Rylee's scrapbook
4. Do a walk for a cause
5. Put away $1.00 a day for 1000 days then spend it on a trip.
6. Learn to play golf.
7. Put away $1.00 a day for the girls for christmas next year.
8. Tell chris & the girls I love them when Im upset with them.
9. Read 50 new books
10. Try a new recipie once a month
11. Exercise everyday except sundays
12.join and attend church
13. Get the girls involved in chruch
14 Write my friends letters
15. Take more me time
16. Find a sitter & go on date night once a month.
17. Make a list of my 101 favorite songs
18. Blog at least once a month
19. Make my 101 list into a scrapbook
20. Take a pic of me doing everything on my 101 list
21. Go for a hike
22. Take a picture of myself every 30 days to see my work out progress
23. No more soda
24. Learn how to crochet
25. No eating out during the week
26. Take a picture of my girls everyday
27. Make homemade cards for b-days and holidays
28. Find a pen pal
29. Volunteer 10 times
30. buy a fireproof box, fill it with personal items like the girls hospital bracelets and t-shirts
31. Keep a journal and write in it everyday
32. Make another 101 list before the end of this one
33. Send a card to: someone I know, someone I don't, and someone I love
34. Explore Kansas
35. Donate to charity
36. Take a cake decorating class
37. Dance in the rain with my girls
38. Have a dinner in with chris
39. Drink 2 glasses of water a day
40. Throw a party other than a b-day party
41.write a love note and mail it to chris
42. Find something to collect
43. Campout in the yard 3 times
44. Have an outdoor movie night
45.make 3 new friends
46. Ignore the negative, concentrate on the possitive
47. Go on a weekend get away just me and my mom
48. Perform 5 random acts of kidness
49. Do something good for the earth
50.do something I haven't done since I was a kid
51. Write my mom a letter
52. Start and keep a girls night out once a month
53. write my memere a letter every month
54. Lose the baby weight!!
55. Be more confident
56. Attend story time at the library every week
57. Get another tattoo
58. Go to a dance class
59.go to a wine tasting
60. Buy 10 new nail polishes
61. paint my nails once a week
62. Send a care package to a solider I don't know
63. Read the bible front to back
64. Find 20 bible verses that mean something to me
65. Complete 200 miles in 300 days
66. Make a list of 100 reasons of why I love chris and give it to him
67. Teach Charleigh a dance routine and let her perform it
68. Dance like crazy 1 day a week
69.sing at the top of my lungs to my favorite songs
70. Start a chain letter for kids with stickers!
71. Have a spa day
72. Try a new resturant
73. Buy a new ipod
74. Learn a new word every day and use it
75. Go on a honeymoon finally!
76. Be able to run a mile without dying
77. Pray everyday at meal time w/the girls
78. Take and send out a family photo
79. Decorate for every holiday
80. Stop living in sweat pants (can only wear them 1 day a week)
81. Host a cookie exchange party
82. Read a night time story every night
83. Rekindle an old friendship
84. Host a playdate once a month
85. Go back to school for early childhood edu.
86. Get charleigh and rylee in a mommy's day out program
87. Take vitamins everyday
88. Get the girls baptized
89. Go on a double date 5 times
90. Do not buy any more sweats
91. Spend more on my self
92. No more impuls buys
93.buy and wear more earrings
94. Buy and learn to walk in heals (again)
95.lose 50 lbs and reward myself
96. Follow through with # 95
97. Spend a whole day in bed as a family
98. Learn to not stress out so much
99. Realize that its ok that the laundrys not done, toys all over the floor and dinners not ready and its 7pm....its OK
100. Pay myself $5.00 for every accomplished item
101. Pay chris $5.00 for every item I don't